Last week we saw our new pediatrician/family doctor for the first time. He was awesome, patient, accommodating. He saw Dearest and Lil'Bug in a double appointment with little notice. He explained things well.
Then.
Then he heard a heart murmur.
When Lil'Bug was born she had a faint heart murmur. We had to sleep her on her side instead of her back because of this. Then it went away. It was back? The places I observed him hear it and what he explained to us and then his referral to a Pediatric Cardiologist sent me into a minor (ok, major) heart flutter. I spent hours on the Internet. I sent even more time cuddling Lil'Bug hoping that it was nothing serious......but there were possibilities that everything was not ok. Very not ok. I laid awake at night thinking about it. I didn't blog about it because of the potential that everything would be ok and I was just blowing it out of proportion. I didn't want sympathy I didn't really deserve.
Today we saw the specialist. He and his staff were kind and efficient. Lil'Bug was cooperative but scared and I wasn't allowed in the x-ray room with her (big, fat preggo belly and all). Thank goodness for Dearest.
Lil'Bug has a murmur, an innocent murmur, with a musical tonality. We'll observe at check ups and that's it.
Tears were shed. Ice cream was had by all of us.
That's it. She's not going to drop dead during soccer practice or need heart surgery or need to be on machines or medicine or die. We feel very, very blessed. The waiting room was filled with families just like us, only some of them did not get the all clear. I cried for them tonight too.
That saying about a mother's heart walking around out in the world every time she becomes a mother to another precious babe? .....so very, very true.
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Ugh, how scary. I'm so glad that everything seems to be fine.
ReplyDeleteMy brother had to have heart surgery when he was just two years old. It was quite scary for my parents. I was too young to understand. And I really don't remember either.
Today my brother is 30 and healthy and the only thing that's left of his surgery is a scar around his left shoulder blade. :)
I am so sorry that you had to go through that.......
ReplyDeleteI have had a murmur my since birth with the only consequence being that dentists always want to give me antibiotics when my teeth are worked on....(due to increased risk of heart infections or something). Breath deep and give Lil'Bug an extra hug for me.
You would have deserved sympathy just for the fear you went through. I'm so glad all is well.
ReplyDeleteThank all! I am relieved. The Internet can be a blessing of information, but sometimes fuels one's worst anxieties. You know?
ReplyDeleteI knew she was in good hands even if she ended up with something scary. We have some excellent docs here.
Still, I am glad for the ordeal to be over. Now, I juts need to finish folding diapers and baby bedding!
glad everything's OK! I had a heart murmur until I was in my teens, when it just went away, apparently. My mom had one her whole life. (And while she did die of a heart attack, it was really more due to diabetes than the murmur. I promise.)
ReplyDeleteI am so glad she is ok! What a scary situation!
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